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Recently I’ve started memorizing words. Coach Moon is the one who made me try to enter 4 years college. I think he wanted to let me know what is going on this society. I’ve been training English for over a year and I want to make it also. Maybe a few weeks ago, he said to me I’d better start studying. Actually the month he told me about is September but I didn’t make it September. So even it’s already October, I’m trying to study as much as I can. And study is different with training. But I can see with different point of view. When I was in middle and high school, I didn’t even understand what they are saying through the grammar or something but now I can see what I have to do. Actually it’s not that funnier than training but it’s not about fun. It is kind of challenge. Many people have believed me. I don’t want to let my people down. So I’m going to do whatever I have to do. I know I’m not that strong person to do something. For me, next year is going to be very important. When I was in 10, I went abroad. It is Argentina. Do you know why I’d been there? It’s my father and mother. They’d separated for how many years and that’s when they decided it. My father felt miserable about his situation and he decided to go abroad because he hated his situation and he wanted to have new start. And he has a friend who has lived in Argentina since then. Yeah of course that’s why he decided to go to Argentina with me. I didn’t have any willingness at the moment because I was too young to think about it. Anyway we lived in one of his friend’s house’s rooms. But it’s not that good memory because it’s kind of parasitic relationship. It’s not like symbiosis relationship. Nobody told me about the relationship but I could feel it, even though I was 10 years old. Sometimes I felt like I’m parasite or something? It was absolutely not like my own house. I didn’t want that. Anyway father made me go to school and I didn’t even know how to speak Spanish. It’s their language. And I really didn’t know why I had to learn how to speak Spanish because I didn’t know father wanted to keep living there. But I am Korean and he didn’t even let me know what he was thinking. And language has to be acquired. It’s not from study. If I want to learn how to speak some language, I have to train to speak a lot. That’s the only way to improve language. I thought everything was unjust. Actually at the moment I didn’t even know what justice is, but I thought I was in injustice because I felt it. I guessed anyone could justify my situation. Yeah truth to be told, I was kind of negative about my situation. I didn’t like the way people looked at me and everything. It was kind of my justification. But anyway I had just spent 6~7 months in there. I don’t think that is useless time for me. What I said is irrelevant with transfer exam, nothing relevant, but whatever~ I’m just saying it. But I think I overestimated my ability and just blamed the situation. But even though I overestimated myself, I don’t think it’s bad because it’s better than underestimation. I think I don’t need to estimate myself. I just need to do my best. That’s what I have to do. Anyway I easily adapt to communal living like special training because I was already discharged from the military service. So I learned a lot of things like regard. We have to use communal shower room, shower tools, inner clothes. Can you believe it? We even shared inner clothes. It’s kind of community. And the purpose of the Korea army is to protect South Korea from North Korea army. North Korea is in communism. If communism can be in real, anything is going to be great. But let’s face up to the reality. North Korea is not going to make it if they keep their thought. They are not that rich. They’ve reinforced as much as they can. But look at them. They have nothing but military power. But they couldn’t even use it because of other country’s eyes. I’m not sure how our military is strong but I’m pretty sure that we’ve strengthened too. And we are richer than them. I think they don’t need to be more intense than now. They need to survive.
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