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Today I didn’t go anywhere I’m just in my home. Today I got up late and I had to go to church. This is so stressful for me to go there. As you know I don’t have any faith. I just go to church every Sunday. Cause my mother push me. I know church is not that bad place. And also there are a lot of great people in there. But I just don’t like it. I like bible. There are wisdoms in there. All I have to do is just read and get it. But the church life is a little bit different. I don’t like to be some part of that place. But they always push me with some saying.

“God is right. You got to believe god. If you’re not going to believe god, you’re going to go to hell!” what the…

I’m seriously don’t like this kind of pushing. I’m living my life. God can help my life. I know what they are saying. But they don’t have any right to push me. But they are close with my mom and grand mom. So I can’t refuse sharply. Even I want to cut them out sharply. It also can be stress so in the future I’m not sure I’m going to go to church or not. But anyway I’m not going to go to same church with my mom and grand mom. I can focus on anything in there. When I was in church today, I barely even got the 40 minutes and I decided to go out from church. I couldn’t stand that feeling. It’s really uncomfortable. I think this is serious problem. But anyway maybe I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m not sure when it’s going to be the big day that I’m going to start what I said to you guys. I had shower 2 times already. This is really hot. Even I’m in my home, I can’t stand this temperature. And I’m a little bit sleepy. I want to sleep without any concerning. Yesterday I shared many things with Victoria. We studied together at lotteria. And she said subway was going to be station till 12:17 am. So I trusted that plan and studied a lot. But suddenly one of my friends called to me and he said

“Why don’t you join us?”

So I hesitated to go there. Cause I haven’t seen them for very long time.

But I couldn’t go there. I thought I had to study English a lot today.

So anyway I’m in my room to writing my diary. And it’s kind of fun. I like writing something without pen. So it’s almost finish. What do you think?

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